Few Weeks of Change

These past few weeks have been an enlightening one for me. Never did I think I could be so fortune to have these people in my life. From the person I've known for a while now but never really had a chance to speak to as much, to the people I hanged out with back when I was just a freshman in college.

I never thought that I could be on speaking terms with this person. I was always very shy and had a lot of eyes observing me back then. This person even thought I was very dismissive when I talked and thought I acted like I am better... basically a snob. The truth is, I was just in a different place in time... busy observing from a distance. Now this person is like the goto person I never had but always wanted one. We'd talk/text about random things and similar interests... anything.

I lost connection with the people I hanged out with at the mall 5 years ago. One of them I worked with at Muvico back then. We enjoyed one game together and that is Pump it Up. After the changes in my life, I stopped going there and lost connection with them. Circumstances changed and I started going back there and played again because it was the one place that always cheered me up no matter how hard my day/week/month was. In one of these nights, it was like a grand reunion: they all showed up one by one. Since then, we've hanged out and eaten at Denny's. I just got back from Denny's with two of these guys from 1AM to 4:30AM. We just talked about anything.

If there is one word to describe the many, many range of emotions I'm feeling right now... it would be happy. Not sugar-coating it happy. Happy. I've only had about 2 hours of sleep for the past 2 days. I should be tired and angry, but I'm feeling very blessed right now. Thanks to you guys, you made my transition from depression to acceptance closer from coming into fruition. Thank you for being you.

I'm done.

Lost and Found

One thing I remember growing up are the grown up advise by my elders to stop looking for it. For example, before I leave the house for school, I remembered that I forgot the TI-83 Graphing Calculator. I get back home and I can't seem to remember where I placed it. The more I try to think about where it was, the more stressed out I get for not remembering. My mom would always say to stop thinking about it. Stop looking for it and you're brain will eventually remember it out of nowhere. There's a psychological term for this, but I can't seem to remember it.

Why Declining An Open Relationship Was the Best Decision I Ever Made?

In 3-4 days, it will be 6 months since my ex and I broke up. To be honest, I already knew it would happen eventually and noticed all the subtle and non-subtle hints a few months before that. I kept telling myself I would be okay. She would blame her parents, her work and her grad-school online classes for being too busy. Her nagging parents didn't stop her from going out with me in the first place, so why having more reasons trying to spend a lot more time away with me when we would only see each other once a day in the weekend? I understand her predicament. As a best friend, I support her for everything. As a boyfriend, it tended to get lonely.

Rewarded

So I just found out today in my email that I got rewarded by my project manager for building my technical capability. I integrated myself pretty into the team and picking up complex application knowledge allowing myself to help the team leads with tasks assigned.

It's great being recognized by your hardwork. I just do what I have to do and I'm in no way only doing this so I can get a reward. Having a job is a reward on it's own.

Not much else to say but thanks.

I'm done.

Saturday

So I went to a cookout in Centennial Park on Saturday from 2 to about 6pm. It was great. It was a different crowd this time around, but still as fun as last time. the kabobs were really nice. Lin and I shared a kabob and Danny said to stop teasing Lin. I just think he's jealous :)

We stayed later than 5pm for a bit. There was a watermelon that was left over by this other group. The dad came back to pick it up, but he ended up dropping it and it partially broke. So he walked towards us and just gave it. So we had our free watermelon before we left.